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Cake - The Distance
What you don’t understand…
…is that I’m trying my best to be happy and put on a smile, but really deep down I’m hurting.
I know that I choose to be happy, but its hard to be happy when everything around me isn’t. I have a lot of relationship problems with my friends…I would do anything for my friends and they know that, all of them, but I feel like they won’t do the same for me. I feel like I am constantly getting fucked over time and time again. I just wish that I wasn’t feeling this way. I wish that I could trust people to just stick to their word and be genuine.
Every now and then I just want to feel wanted. I want people to need me, and I’m not sure why I have this feeling. Maybe because I went most of my life not being wanted by anybody. I was wanted for the wrong reasons…and when those reason went downhill, I was left in pieces for somebody else to pick up, and too this day, I am labeled as the vicious one, when really, its the other person that is vicious.
I just hope that one day I can get over all this stupid shit and just live my life, and I am trying as hard as I can right now to do that, but its just so hard.
The future you have, tomorrow, won’t be the same future you had, yesterday.
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| — | Chuck Palahniuk (via romanticwitharationalmind) |
